Feature: Rainbow Huff
My name is Rainbow Huff and I am the proud mother of an almost four year old son. He is my favorite person in the world. I live to see his sweet smile and relish in the joy of hearing him tell me how much he loves me. I wear the title of his mother like an Olympic gold medalist, with pride and honor. Motherhood has been amazing, insightful, and transformational.
As a mother, I have embarked on a journey that has required me to perform some critical self-assessments that haven’t always yielded favorable results. I had to make a conscious decision of whether or not I was living life in a way that would ultimately bless my son. As a woman and a mother I had to engage in a personal assessment that forced me to address, not only the relationship I had with God but also the relationship I had with myself. Was I conducting myself in a manner that would ultimately prove to be a solid role model for my son, with regards to how he views and understands women? What was I teaching my son about loving himself and more importantly, loving God? I became very aware that my son’s first impression of God and women would come from me.
My revelations have helped me understand that what we believe shows up in our lives. It’s what becomes attracted to us. My personal journey of evolution has taught me that when we are in proper alignment with God, there is absolutely no limit to what can happen in and through our lives. This understanding has allowed me to start prioritizing, based on not just my life, but my son’s life too. As I began to reconnect with God I became aware of the power I possessed as a woman of God who had been called to raise a man of God. I started to understand that if I wanted to see change in myself and the people and things in my life, I had to be the change. My life expression is based on the belief that evolution will never require explanation because those who have a genuine love for you will appreciate the growth.
I am a woman of God who is being called to do and be more. I realize that my desire to evolve and grow into the woman God is calling me to be is much bigger than just myself and encompasses the role of steward, teacher, motivator, etc.… to my son. My son needs to see and hear me pray. He needs to understand that he is fearfully and wonderfully made so that when the world tries to diminish him to nothing more than his color, he will not be moved. It’s important that he understands the power he holds, so that he believes he is worthy and attracts the right people and things to manifest in his life. I tell him that God lives in his heart so that he knows God is always with him and will never leave nor forsake him. It’s imperative that he realizes we can’t change others, but we can be the change we want to see and trust that those aligned with our destiny will appreciate and reciprocate the evolution. I will never be able to control the world in which my son will be forced to maneuver, but I can empower him with the knowledge and love of God to help guide and direct him.
As I continue to rebrand myself into the woman God has ultimately called me to be, I am essentially rebranding my son, the future Black man.